Miss Ruby

There is something intoxicating about the smell of yeast bread as it is baking; it instantly makes my mouth water.

Mrs. Hanlin was responsible for this. She came to us when Mother was ill and hospitalized for a long period of time; she cooked and cleaned for our family. She was apparently very good at both but her cleaning is NOT what I embraced. I distinctly remember the smell of her yeast bread dinner and cinnamon rolls as they were baking. Long after she had gone that sweet smell was forever etched in my memory.

In the days when I started first grade there seemed to be little concern for children walking to school -- everyone walked. Over time, I came to use those walks as a barometer to gauge how my day would go; an ideal day for me would have begun by walking into the bright light of a Spring morning -- a crisp chill hanging in the air. But, perfection was realized only when the sweet smell of yeast bread goodness permeated the breeze as I approached school. Everyone always knew when it was cinnamon roll day. For this reason, and more, the cafeteria ladies held a special place in my heart.

Miss Ruby worked her entire adult life as a cafeteria cook; she was one of the vaunted ladies entrusted with the secrets to making my only vice come to life. I generally carried my lunch to school but it didn't stop me from coveting the "fruits of her hard labors." I might have sold my soul to the devil for one of those rolls; as it is, I had to settle for potato chips as my only bargaining tool.

I don't know what brought Miss Ruby to GVM. I only know that one of my brothers immediately fell under her spell. It wasn't until I found out what she had done for a living that my interest was truly piqued; I decided I would do almost anything to gain access to her secrets.

I can write that she is almost 100 years of age, nearly blind, and has a wicked sweet tooth. My brother began to spoil Miss Ruby and a gaggle of her lady friends early on by bringing Tootsie Roll Pops almost everyday. It got so bad after a while that one of them would invariably lose her manners by blurting out, "What have you got for us today."

I honestly am not sure if Miss Ruby actually eats Tootsie Roll Pops -- or sells them on the black market. I am justified in writing that because the basket of her walker always has the look of a porcupine for all the Tootsie Roll Pops that stick out of it. I always ask if she has any left, to which she softly replies, "No, I don't think so." When I point out evidence to the contrary she expresses surprised innocence; I choose to believe she is a very cunning actress. She is also irresistible.

She is extremely proud of her days as a cafeteria cook and also speaks quite fondly of her myriad students; she is one of the lucky people who truly loved her work. Yes, she does have the secret recipe for those cinnamon rolls but always insists she doesn't know exactly where she stashed it. She is wickedly cunning. I make a mental note to push harder the next time or to corner one of her unsuspecting relatives.

An amazing woman; soft spoken, kind, reflective, funny, and adorable. She loves to talk.

Sadly, just shy of her 100th Birthday, Ruby died in the comfort of her own bed on July 5, 2009.

That afternoon was unsettling for me; I was pensive. I later looked around the nursing home and noticed nothing seemed to have changed; clocks were ticking, residents were eating their meals, and medications were being passed.

I have been around medicine long enough to know better but still the question surfaces. Why doesn't the world quake or stop when a life is taken? Why aren't we forced to stop and immediately take stock of a life lived and lost?

And then -- in the same moment -- my revery ended as I remembered that I had been asked to find someone to address a problem for Mom. This is what happens -- life happens.

That evening I walked down Ruby's hall and noticed her personal effects were still in the room -- as if she wasn't gone. In a corner stood her walker. And there they were -- jutting out of the basket were two sticks from those Tootsie Roll Pops. I couldn't help but smile.

I keep imagining her as the cafeteria lady from my childhood. The thousands of greetings she must have received over the years!

Hello, Miss Ruby!

Even though I never did get that recipe, I know I am a better person simply for having known her.

The sweet smell of yeast breads baking will forever return me to memories of Mrs. Hanlin and the halcyon days of my youth. It will now also bring me back to these days at GVM, when I came to know one of the cafeteria ladies who once held a secret key to my heart.

Goodbye, Miss Ruby!